My untitled heart spoke, "I've done that stupid temptation over and over again that I felt as if the Holy Spirit have left me. I felt as if God has turned His face from me and His ears are plugged. I compared myself to the Israelites and I felt that I am those that could not leave Egypt behind. I was those that died through the journey and have never made it to the promised land. I felt terrible coming to Christ. When I knelt and prayed, my untitled heart spoke as if it is uncertain in its loyalty and its pure love for God. I kept asking God, can You please speak to me, let me know something, let me know a little bit more of You.
Prior to posting this, I found this at the perfect time:
No, I will not be going to Philippines as a missionary just yet, but the message that God wanted me to hear was in the video itself, and that's when I came up with this quote; 'I am a failure, yet, with Christ, I will overcome.' God helped me realized that since I was born, I am still a failure, I am still incapable of standing on my own, and that I needed Christ to help me stand. Now, don't get me wrong, this is not saying that God made me a failure, but God allows failure to happen so that I can depend on Him. I just could not believe of His subtle message."
Thank You Lord, for taking the time to look after your adopted child. A child that is yet mature in spirituality, who failed, and have fallen, yet you came and picked me up though my face have planted to the ground. You cleaned the dirt off of my face and you cleansed me with your own robe of righteousness. You gave me comfort to let me know that through the falls, there will be One that will always lift me up. Lord, thank You for Your Son. May this quick prayer of my untitled heart, be acceptable in Your loving heart. Amen.
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